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12 July 2012 @ 07:07 pm

So this all started on Monday night when my mom dropped me off at my Grandma's house since she was the one that would drive me out there for the first night since my mom had work. I left for San Diego at 2am and got there right around 3:30 am, I didn't get any sleep that night until around 7am and even then only for like an hour and then again at noon for an hour (this is on top of already having been up the whole day before). This was the day when poor Grisela died. The atmosphere was very serious at the camp out that day and it was just a huge shock, I think my section was the first to hear about the accident because a girl that saw it happen came over crying as we were moving along in our line in the camp. Anyways the day went on and my mom and brother finally joined me at around 7pm. After they had settled down and my grandma had left I went to a cafe to meet another Kristen fan that I have known for a little while but never met and we had coffee and talked about Kristen and were just really awkward but we had tons of fun. I went back to my camp area after that and I went to bed shortly after and thankfully had a good like 9 hours of sleep.

The next morning my mom and brother and I had to go get some things from Walmart since we had packed in a hurry and forgotten a lot. We came back and got some food then went to check into the hotel to drop my brother off since he would sleep in there that night and I got various things ready for my costume the next day, my mom picked up out badges while I did this. Getting the badges took much longer than we expected and I was running a bit farther behind time wise than I would have liked since that was the night that we were getting a surprise at 9pm which obviously meant celebrities. We get back to the camp area and it's chaos! The stars had already just started to show up like 10 mins earlier than when I got there at 8:45. There were sooooooo many cast members I can't name them all but I got autographs from everyone except Mackenzie and Peter and got pictures with only a few less people than that! After the celebrities all went over to the summit party things died down fast but I wasn't able to fall asleep that night until almost 3am.

This morning I had to wake up at 5am in order to have enough time to get back to the hotel and do everything I needed to do with my costume and get back before 8am when we were going to start being moved into the formal line for hall H. We ran behind then we tried to catch a bus and missed it and ended up finally getting there with about 15 minutes to spare thank god! I had to do my makeup in line but once I finished everyone seemed to like my costume. I was asked to do an interview with Zimbio and so I did in full costume, a couple other people also wanted a picture with me including a lady from twilightseriestheories.com, a large twilight fan site! Right while I was putting makeup on however was when they came around with the bag of tickets for the autograph signing drawing, my brother who was standing in line with us pulled first and pulled a winning ticket! I turned to the lady in charge of getting winners the wristbands and she said I could have it if he didn't want it, so that's how I got the wristband.

We were finally moved into hall H and the anticipation began. I was able to get absoultely amazing seats on the left edge of the middle right section (so I was pretty much in the middle of everything) and only maybe 10 rows back! They showed us some trailers for movies before the panel started. Then the guys that run the panels came out, I think they all said a little something about Grisela and it was very nice. Then they brought out the Taylor, Rob, Kristen, Mackenzie, and Stephanie. They showed us the first 7 minutes of BDP2 and then got into the questions then showed a quick scene when Bella is getting ready to see Charlie for the first time which was sooo freaking cute and funny! Then they brought out the rest of the cast and asked a question or two and when they opened the questions to the audience it was time for me to leave for the autograph signing.

I waited in line for the autographs and I think I was like number 42 out of 51 so I was a little worried about the time issue since they were already a little behind with the panel and our session would end when the orignial end time was set so we lost about 15 mins worth of time. While I'm standing in line I'm practicing the little conversation I planned out in my head (so I didn't just stand there and not say anything or not say what I wanted to say) and the line got shorter and shorter and then they cut off my wristband and let me in. There is still a small line inside the room so I stand in line in the back of the room and look over at Kristen, as soon as I look over at her I start to almost lose it and then she looks over at me and smiles while she is waiting for the next poster to sign, my eyes welded up with tears and I looked away so I wouldn't start crying. Then it kinda continued like that with me still practicing my little conversation, trying to keep breathing, and looking at her then looking away so I wouldn't cry. Then it was my turn to go and I almost had a heartattack.

Rob was the first person I went to and he smiled as I walked towards him, he says hi and say hi back and then kinda awkwardly trys to move his head around to look at my name tag while he half asks “what's your name?” I show it to him and he says “Amanda... man I know soo many Amanda Jones'.” and I said “Yeah sorry it's a pretty common name haha” and then he signs it personally to me and leans back in his chair and mentions how tired he is and I say “oh it's all the screaming right?” and he says “yeah I don't know it's like I just hit a brick wall all of a sudden” and I say I'm sorry then I kinda wait for the girl that's in front of Kristen to finish. Now of course all this that I just wrote wasn't said all calmly haha I was super energetic but not like fangirling and he was his normal silly, wonky self and he was freaking adorable! I love him cause he's just really loveable and fun and I just thought to myself what a fantastic actor he is because as Edward he is so calm and not silly and what not and it's just so believable and that's actually the complete opposite of his true personality! He was very sexy btw...

Anyways so then I'm in front of Kristen and I am just stunned, she is absolutely breathtaking. She says hi and I say hi back, then I tell her “I'm a really really huge fan of you.” I think she aw'd then I said “I actually gave you a bracelet at the Eclipse premiere.” and she says “Oh I remember that! I wore it! I still have it too!” and I take off the 2 bracelets I'm wearing that I've been trying to give her since that premiere and I tell her “Well I have these 2 bracelets for you” and I hand them to her and I think she said “awesome” and then she signed my poster to me just like Rob did and I ask “Can I have a hug?” and she replies “Yeah man. Totally!” and she starts to stand up and she steps out of her chair and she looks at my costume and says “Oh my god! You're dress is waayyy better than mine! It like actually has slashes and stuff!” and I said “I know I noticed that!” (refering to the fact that in the movie the “rips” in it after she hunts is one perfectly even, nicely cut slit on her thigh). Then she leans in for the hug and I reach under her arms while one arm goes over my shoulder and the other under my arm.

She gives freaking amazing hugs okay, it was a firm hug and I hugged her right back and it was just amazing hahaha but seriously I can't even decribe the hug it was so perfect feeling! I realized now as I reflect on the hug that she and I have almost identical bodies! She might be like maybe an inch taller but our body shape and sizes are exactly the same I'm just a little more muscular! I think that was one reason why the hug was so great because we weren't like awkwardly trying to hug each other because of a height difference or anything. She really is small but definitely not too small at all just built small. As a million thoughts are going through my head during that hug I can help but realize that her cheek is freaking touching my cheek and my face is in her hair and I really just can't believe I'm hugging her. And I don't want to sound like a creeper at all but I did notice that she wasn't wearing any perfume, she just smelled like Kristen haha it was nice. She just made me feel so at ease almost while I was next to her because even though I was in shock because she was right there I felt the love she truly has for her fans so it made me feel good. So then we finally let go of each other after a good 3 seconds and I head over to Taylor.

Taylor asks me how I am and I say I am fantastic and ask how he is and he says he's great (course I'm all smiles cause of Kristen). He starts to sign for me and notices my dress and points up and down to it and says “This is amazing!” and I say “oh thanks! I had red contacts in but they started to bother me you know” and he says “oh yeah yeah” and I say “I only had them in for an hour but...” and he says “Well this is awesome.” and sounds actually impressed which was pretty cool and finished signing. Then shakes my hand and says “Thanks for coming” and I say thank you and go to Mackenzie. She didn't say anything and I didn't want to say anything cause she looked so concentrated on writing nicely in cursive and I didn't want to mess her up and she hands it back to me and I say thanks and leave the room.

I ran as soon as I was out the door because I knew the waterworks were coming. I see my mom on a bench waiting and burst into tears saying “She gave me a hug!!” and then I just sit and cry from pure happiness! I seriously am proud of myself for holding back the tears while she was right there in front of me because I didn't want to make her uncomfortable by crying. Anyways my mom took a picture of me in my pure blissful hapiness waterworks and then we started walking to find my brother. We ended up just coming back to the hotel after that because I was so like almost emotionally drained after such an incredible high... I got super tired but I'm still coming down very slowly from that high and I can't wipe the smile off my face. Thanks to Kristen and her beautiful soul and extreme kindness for her fans I was able to have the truly amazing day I had.

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15 May 2011 @ 10:42 pm

Be warned I have an attitude right now and I'm gonna use it.

So you fucking little bitch, you think you have the right to say "Wow I can't believe this is happening....but certain things you just have to do." and then "Lost a friend. It's a big deal since that's never happend to me. I guess it was just an experience, I've learned from this."? This is such bullshit! You didn't have to do anything!!! I appologized for something I didn't even know I did! I never said we couldn't be friends! I offered to stay friends on a more casual level too! You didn't fucking "lose a friend" you let one of your best friends go over something I didn't even fucking know I did wrong!!! You said I broke your trust but I never went against anything you said!!!! You won't explain to me what I did but you said yourself you understand that I don't know what I did wrong! This is a big deal since you've never lost a friend before?! I've lost many friends!!! I've been left behind by best friends at least 2 other times and left behind by just friends so many times I've lost count! Lastly I'm just some experience?!?!??!!?! What the actual fuck!?!?! I'm a FUCKING EXPERIENCE! I was your best friend and twin for over a fucking year!! We were there with each other for the VERY BEST DAY OF BOTH OF LIVES!!! You were there through most of the BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE!!! Does that mean NOTHING to you?! Was our friendship nothing to you?! How can you pretend like things weren't amazing when they were good! I can't fucking believe you!!!!! I know our friendship most of the time was bumpy but the good times were so FUCKING AMAZING I thought they could outshine any bad parts along the way. An also what friendship isn't bumpy?!  Maybe we didn't have the healthiest friendship but I don't care because it made me happy, and it seemed to make you happy too.

I dealt with a LOT of shit I didn't like about you because I loved you like a sister and I could deal with all your flaws because I know that no one's perfect! But the ONE FUCKING TIME I mess up that's it? You give up!?! Again I say I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE YOU RIGHT NOW!!! You are the most selfish person I've ever met but I dealt with that! You did things I didn't agree with but I dealt with that! But when I go and try to do something nice for someone apparently I break your trust when I didn't even know I did and you CAN'T HANDLE IT?! SUCK IT UP AND CONTINUE BEING MY FRIEND LIKE I DID FOR YOU! I tried soooooo hard for you! I gave you everything I had! You were fucking tied with my best friend of 6 years! That's how much effort I put in for you! But I guess I would have always been in second for you. You didn't need me like I needed you. You probably never would. But I still tried! Just hoping maybe you would put in the same effort!

I'm really gonna fucking miss you. I already do! I don't know how I will move on from this because I can't just replace you! I'm gonna miss all our late night chats during the summer staying up untill 6am talking about Kristen and Taylor and all the other stuff we talked about! I'm gonna miss when we would text each other fangirling over new pictures or whatever it happened to be. I'm gonna miss checking up on how your acting is going and being able to share excitement with you when something happened for me or you. I'm REALLY GONNA FUCKING MISS going to all those Kristen events with each other like we ALWAYS DID!

I don't know how this is going to work in the future. We are bound to run into each other again, what then? What happens when we see each other at the Breaking Dawn premiere this November? We share mutual friends that will be there. What are we going to do? What if you end up going to the MTV movie awards and I end up a seatfiller and we see each other? What happens when eventually we go to other Kristen premieres and see each other because let's face it there aren't many fans that go to those things and there won't be any way to avoid each oher. Are you going to ignore me?

What do I do about all the things that remind me of you? Everytime I see a picture from the Eclipse premiere I think of you. Everytime I think of Halloween I think of you.  Everytime I think of that candy I think of you. Everytime I think of the mtv movie awards I think of you. Everytime I think of The Yellow Handkerchief I think of you. Everytime I think of AIM I think of you. Everytime I think of Jay Leno I think of you! Everytime I think of that mall I think of you! Practically any time I think of Kristen I think of you! I think about you all the time!

In some ways I wish you would hurt. I wish you would REALLY hurt and cry and regret this decision. I wish you would realize you've made a huge mistake and then come crawling back to me to beg for my friendship back. I wish that I could let you hang on to that little glimmer of hope before crushing it and refusing to be your friend ever again. But more than anything I just wish you would change your mind and ask if we can still be friends because I still love you and I can forget everything thats happened and move back into being friends if you can.

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15 December 2010 @ 12:39 am
SUPPOSEDLY if you’ve seen over 70 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you’ve seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list and put x’s next to the films you’ve seen, add them up, change the header adding your number. Have fun.

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) Another Cinderella Story
( ) Step Up
( ) Step Up 2
(x) High School Musical
(x) High School Musical 2
(x) High School Musical 3
(x) Hannah Montana Movie
( ) Enchanted
(x) Sydney White
Total: 7

(x) She’s The Man
(x) Licensed to Wed
( ) The Break-Up
(x) 13 going on 30
(x) 27 Dresses
( ) P.S I Love You
( ) Made of Honor
( ) What Happens in Vegas
(x) Get Smart
(x) The Princess Bride
Total: 13

(x) Camp Rock
(x) Wild Child
(x) Ella Enchanted
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
( ) 50 First Dates
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Hotel For Dogs
( ) Just Married
(x) Freaky Friday
Total: 20

( ) The Hot Chick
(x) Sleepover
(x) Confessions Of a Shopaholic
(x) Twilight
(x) Nancy Drew
(x) The Devil Wears Prada
( ) No Reservations
( ) Perfect Man
( ) Australia
( ) Never Been Kissed
Total: 25

(x) Yes Man
(x) Bedtime Stories
( ) The Pink Panther
( ) The Pink Panther 2
(x) Marley & Me
(x) Cheetah Girls
(x) Cheetah Girls 2
(x) Bratz
(x) Haunted Mansion
(x) Paul Blart Mall Cop
Total: 33

( ) The 40-Year-Old Virgin
(x) Night in the Museum
(x) Night in the Museum 2
(x) Evan Almighty
(x) Bruce Almighty
(x) White Chicks
( ) Neverending Story
( ) Meet the Spartans
(x) Meet the Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
Total: 40

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
( ) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 41

(x) Harry Potter 1: The Sorcerer’s Stone
(x) Harry Potter 2: The Secret Chamber
(x) Harry Potter 3: Prisoner of Azkaban
(x) Harry Potter 4: Goblet of Fire
(x) Harry Potter 5: Order of the Phoenix
(x) Harry Potter 6: Half-Blood Prince
( ) Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings: Return Of the King
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
( ) Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian
Total: 48

( ) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
( ) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
( ) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
( ) Indiana Jones and the Crystal Skull
( ) The Mummy
( ) The Mummy 2
( ) The Mummy 3
(x) Journey to the Center of Earth
( ) City of Ember
( ) Finding Neverland
Total: 49

(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man’s Chest
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 3: At World’s End
( ) X-Men
( ) X-2
( ) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Spider Man 3
( ) King Kong
Total: 55

( ) Hellboy
( ) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
( ) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
( ) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
( ) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
( ) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
( ) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
(x) Underdog
(x) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Batman: The Dark Knight
Total: 57

( ) The Matrix
( ) The Matrix Reloaded
( ) The Matrix Revolution
( ) Terminator
( ) Terminator 2
( ) Terminator 3
( ) Ocean’s Eleven
( ) Ocean’s Twelve
( ) Ocean’s Thirteen
( ) Casino Royale 007
Total: 57

( ) Bourne Identity
(x) Bourne Supremacy
( ) Underworld
( ) Butterfly Effect
( ) Death Note
( ) Death Note 2
( ) Death Note 3: L Change the world
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) I, Robot
Total: 59

( ) Rush Hour
( ) Rush Hour 2
( ) Rush Hour 3
( ) Mission Impossible 1
( ) Mission Impossible 2
( ) Mission Impossible 3
(x) I Am Legend
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) Signs
Total: 60

( ) Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) Saw III
( ) Saw IV
( ) Saw V
( ) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
Total: 60

( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Child’s Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
Total: 60

( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
( ) The Haunted Apartment
( ) Siren
( ) Silent Hill
(x) The Mask
(x) Son Of The Mask
( ) Alone
( ) Omen
( ) House Of Wax
Total: 62

( ) The Eye
( ) The Eye 2
( ) Shutter
( ) When a Stranger calls
( ) The Fog
( ) The Orphanage
( ) The Skulls
( ) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
Total: 62

(x) Lilo & Stitch
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
(x) Madagascar
( ) Madagascar 2
(x) Kung Fu Panda
(x) Bolt
(x) Wall-E
(x) Monsters Inc
(x) Shark Tale
Total: 71

(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
( ) Shrek 3
(x) Finding Nemo
(x) ET
( ) Cars
(x) Ratatouille
(x) Toy Story
(x) Toy Story 2
(x) The Incredibles
Total: 79

( ) Little Miss Sunshine
( ) I Am Sam
(x) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Last Dance
( ) To Kill A Mockingbird
( ) Conrack
( ) Midnight Sun
( ) Little Black Book
( ) Rwanda Genocide
Total: 80

( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Titanic
(x) Romeo & Juliet
( ) Frankenstein
(x) A Midsummer Night’s Dream
Total: 82

= 82! LOL it would be higher but I don't watch scary movies
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27 November 2010 @ 03:13 am

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25 October 2010 @ 08:00 pm

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20 August 2010 @ 01:53 pm
Today I watched a freshmen tape a ultrasound picture to the inside of her locker.

My friend also said she saw two other obviously pregnant girls after I left.

What is this world coming to?
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18 August 2010 @ 10:03 pm
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